7th Anniversary of SZA CTRL album
The album for a generation of young black girls and why it still holds up
Where were you the first time you listened to SZA's CTRL album? I remember being 20 years old in possibly some of the biggest changes in my life took place. I had just broken up with my best friend since elementary school. I was dating multiple lackluster men and like everyone else I had a shitty retail job. While only maybe one of these things has changed, I still remember how seen I felt by that album. From the minute I heard the first strums of Supermodel, I knew I was immediately brought to a place that understood me. The beginning of my twenties felt like the end of the world, transitioning into this abundantly large and confusing universe with a small grasp of what my reality would be. CTRL illustrates the complicated and toxic relationship that young Black women often have with society but also within ourselves.
Songs like "Love Galore" may sound like typical R&B on the surface, but their lyrics delve into the complex dynamics of love and heartbreak, portraying the struggle of being played while still deeply in love. Tracks such as "Drew Barrymore" and "Normal Girl" capture the shared feelings of jealousy and insecurity experienced in youth, reflecting the desire to attain perfection and beauty as an easier path than embracing one's true self.
CTRL explores the concept of breaking away from outdated thought patterns and emotions that hinder personal growth as you mature. Tracks like “Go Gina” and “Prom” touch on the idea of breaking free from anxiety and negativity, while striving to learn boundaries and improve emotional intelligence.
The theme of relearning is prevalent throughout CTRL, perhaps reflecting the constant state of unlearning and relearning lessons that comes with being in your twenties. This is most apparent in “Broken Clocks,” where SZA masterfully captures the concept of non-linear progress, offering a refreshing perspective for those resistant to change.
"Doves in the Wind" and "Pretty Little Birds" are both intensely introspective tracks, each exploring distinct aspects of the human experience. While "Doves in the Wind" delves into the significance of female sexuality, "Pretty Little Birds" provides a glimpse into the emotions we experience when confronting our inner struggles and being honest with ourselves.
Even the interludes of this album are impactful, with “Wavy” standing out as an underrated track that deserves more recognition. And who could forget the infamous entanglement anthem “Weekend,” which sparked debates but ultimately provided an honest commentary on relationships?
If you haven't shed a tear while listening to “20 Somethings,” then you're missing out on a poignant coming-of-age song that encapsulates the fear of growing up and growing old. This track, like many others on the album, oozes vulnerability and resonates deeply with listeners.
SZA's late grandmother's wisdom permeates the album, adding another layer of depth and insight. Her presence is felt throughout, offering invaluable gems of advice that speak to the experiences of young Black women.
This project also includes SZA's late grandmother, whose wisdom permeates the album. Her presence is felt throughout, offering invaluable gems of advice, such as "If you ain't got shit to say to me, I ain't got shit to say to you. Overall, "CTRL" will always be my safe place to fall, and I believe for many young Black girls, this album highlights a frequently overlooked aspect of their journey into adulthood as women. CTRL offers insight into the evolving mindset of Black millennial and Gen Z women, all while remaining a certified banger. Thank you Solana and also justice for WAVY.
Beautifully written.